30 October 2012

~ Letting Go ~

When J and I moved to Tennessee,
I decided to embark on a new career.
I had worked long and hard in the professional
horse business and my body was already telling
me it was time to quit.
After nursing animals for so many years, 
I set my sight on people. 

Something I have never written about here.
With great family support, I started school.
All. Over. Again.
I traveled far.
2 hours each way.
I studied, studied, studied.
I finished.

I did my internship.
But in the midst of the new career,
my body began telling me,
this new career...
might not work either.
At my doctor's urging, I needed a break.
That was 5 years ago.

I have hung onto my scrubs,
all of this time.
For a year, they hung in my closet.
Then I packed them away.
Because you never know.....

And then yesterday, I unpacked them.
Washed each set,
hung them,
and loaded them in the car.

Today I have a doctor's appointment.
And my fave nurse is to be the recipient
of all these great scrubs that were hardly worn.

It's time to say goodbye to that era.

in order to save your own heart
you just have to step forward
and leave some things behind.



Diane Cayton-Hakey said...

Sometimes it's a good thing to let go. You may not be where you want to be career-wise, but you are where you are supposed to be. xox Glad you found someone who can put the scrubs to good use. :-))

RoeH said...


Beth @ E. lizard Breath Speaks said...

i know it must be tough to let them go. but so very sweet of you to give them away. i'm sure they will be well used. i totally understand the moving on bit though. so i'm right there with you on moving on. i think we all can let go of stuff from our past ...it so does the mind & body good. big big hugs. (:

Donna said...

What a bittersweet post! You aren't just saying goodbye to your scrubs. You are saying goodbye to your dreams of being a nurse. Your heart must be breaking about letting them go. But you are bravely facing reality.

I deeply admire your strength and determination. God's purpose is being redefined for you.

Flat Creek Farm said...

It's hard to let go (doing some of this lately myself).. sending hugs!! ♥♥♥ -Tammy

Grandma Barb's This and That said...

So sorry that your dream of becoming a nurse didn't work out. You are kind to give the scrubs to your nursing friend. You are a brave and kind person.

Bianca said...

How brave of you. Finally saying goodbye and letting go of your new carrier. Must have been very hard. I salute you for doing this......

I wish I was that brave, letting go of my "skinny clothes".... They are hanging and packed away for almost 8 years now. I will probably never fit in them again, but if I give them away I will defenitly give up trying....

I hate that these horrible diseases are doing this to us. Been in a bit of a wheepy mood today, tired and sore.
I'm sick and tired of always being sick and tired.......

Kayla @ TheEclecticElement said...

Firstly, how very nice of you to bestow your pretty much brand new scrubs on someone who can use them! I'm sure the recipient will very much appreciate them all :)

I have to agree with you though. Sometimes to heal yourself, you need to let go of things, mental and physical, that are reminders of the past.

It might be difficult, but it will be the best in the long run!

Lottie said...

Letting go can be empowering. Hard to enjoy today with yesterday always peeking through. Best wishes!

Gaelyn said...

There's nothing wrong with change and moving on after lessons are learned.

SouthernHeart said...

Beautiful post and I totally understand. I have been a Registered Nurse since 1978 - working mostly parttime when my children (now all grown and with families of their own) were young. My last year before retiring was spent as an Oncology RN. Now, it is all behind me. I think of all the different areas I worked in and I know that at my age and this stage of my life, there would be no way I would have the energy or strength! I think you're wise to save your energy and move on. Nursing is very demanding! Hugs and blessings to you.


Dayle @ A Collection of This and That said...

Bittersweet post. Letting go is not easy, no matter what we're letting go of. But it can also be freeing, opening unexpected doors of opportunity in other areas of life.

All the best,

Buttons said...

Oh that last line says it all {{HUGS}} B

Rain said...

Sending you warm windy thoughts from the northeast Misha! Blessings to you and prayers to help your decision. A hard one.
Fondly, Rain

ain't for city gals said...

The saddest thing of this is that you would have been an awesome nurse!

Patricia said...

I agree with 'ain't for city gals'.
You are one of the most compassionate and caring bloggers to connect with. Take care and I hope your day is lighter in spirit after letting go of the scrubs.

Rural Revival said...

You ARE amazing! Dear sweet Misha, it must be difficult, even though you know it's time to move on. Nursing school requires much hard work, I know my mom went back to school to take nursing in her 30's but for different reasons never worked as a nurse. She still learned a lot, that will never change and she's my 'go to' whenever the kids or I are sick. What you learned will always be with you too. There is nothing wrong with taking care of yourself!
Andie xoxoxo

Melinda said...

As my Mom used to say "Let go, let God."
I'm sure you nurse was pleased with your generous gift.

Did Sany get to you guys?

M :)

Holly Field Designs said...

Just three days ago, I packed up my scrubs too. I've been a nurse 30 years, until 2 years ago I became ill, and never gone back to work. It's hard to let go of things, but usually there is something to take it's place. I still struggle with accepting the way things are now! I like what Dayle wrote about new doors, and new opportunity. How nice you found someone to gift the scrubs to.

Thistle Cove Farm said...

truthfully Misha...I wish I didn't know so well of what you speak. a season of change is beginning, again, in my life; only God knows where it will lead. He holds you/us in His right hand of mercy; cling tightly! bless you for blessing others.
xoxo, Sandra

Lynne said...

Great post Misha . . . I learn something about you every day! Keep sharing your stories!

Happy your scrubs will be put to use by someone you know! Letting go allows something new to take birth!

Donna said...

I didn't know you were going to be a nurse either! You would have been a wonderful one. So glad the scrubs went to a sweet nurse.
And your right ... sometimes we just have to let go.

Leslie @ Farm Fresh Fun said...

Sending hugs and prayers your way. You would have been an awesome nurse but I'm confident that God's plans for you are even better.
Happy Halloween! ( I'm a sucker for black cat pics!)

Karen said...

Sometimes the letting go is the release you need to truly be at peace, and perhaps step through the next open door...

You are such a giving person, Misha.. this handing over of the scrubs is yet another manifestation of how you give to others...

(GBS) NewsFromTheHill said...

I'm sure that making the decision to let go was a hard one, but remember that you're the same person no matter what clothes you have (or don't have) in your closet!